Opening Up & Brendan Brazier

My mind still races. Every single day. Obsessing over stupid things that I have no control over. At night before bed, when I wake up, in the shower, every second of every freaking day. 


Ok, I just had to get that out. 

Funny story, last night I decided to continue on my path of relaxation. I went to yoga and set dinner up so that all Nate would have to do is to turn the burner on and let it cook. 

Problem: yoga went longer than expected and Nate went for a run. By the time he came home, the house was filled with smoke and dinner was ruined. I intended on having a delicious lentil, beet, carrot, and quinoa stew but instead I had charred lentil, beet, carrot, and quinoa not-so-stew.  

Long story short, Pearl now has a delicious smokey dog food for the rest of the week. Did you know that lentils are one of the best superfoods for dogs? Beets and carrots are also fantastic for dogs. Obviously the dog food gods were looking out for her and that is why dinner really burned 😉 


This morning, I got to be a guest at Cape Coral Hospital. They had Brendan Brazier, founder of Vega, come in and speak. As I stepped into the room, there were two long tables full of vega shakers and samples. Each flavor on display in all it’s glory. I scooped up a shaker full of my favorite flavor of Vega One, Vanilla Chai. 


I really love this product. In the past, I used the Vega Sport Performance Protein, but more recently, I have been into the Vega One Nutritional Shakes. They are full of nutrients and super tasty. 

On to the talk. Brendan started speaking about something that really hit home for me. He started talking about stress on the body and cortisol levels. He mentioned how when he started training, he was doing really well for the first few months, and then around month four, he started to gain body fat. He was feeling tired and having weird cravings. He had his cortisol tested and his cortisol was through the roof. 

The body on stress is a disaster waiting to happen. 

This is the disaster that I am currently wading my way through. 

Brendan gave ideas on how to reduce stress and I decided I really need to take this idea to heart. I am happy to say I am still on the right path. Lowering my exercise levels, sleeping more, and eating well. 





Plantain Pancakes

1 VERY ripe plantain

2T coconut milk

2T coconut flour

2 egg whites and 1 whole egg

1T walnut-sunflower butter (or any nut butter…I just had made this previously)

Cinnamon to your liking 

1/2 t baking soda

1/2 t baking powder


Blend everything in the food processor and cook in a skillet with coconut oil






Week 2 and Easing Back Into It

Last night my mind was racing. I sat there in my bed and I just couldn’t fall asleep.


I was so torn on what to do. On one hand, I wanted to go back to exercising this week. I wanted to dive in hard and get back to the Laura that everyone knows. On the other hand, I knew that was stupid. I knew that if I wanted last week to be worth it, that I would have to let my body tell me when it is time to go back. I knew that if I dove in this week, that I wouldn’t even see the results of last week and I would never know if it was worth it. I need another week, this is the week of my cycle that I could actually see my progress.

I finally calmed down when I decided to get up in the morning and go for a walk.

I woke up at 5:15am and out I went. I began walking and before I knew it, I was trying to run. I tried to take it easy and walk some/jog some. I wound up walking 30 seconds and running 1 minute for 30 minutes. I guess I should have taken it easier, but it felt good.

I got home and tried my very first homemade green juice.

1 apple

1 cucumber

handful of spinach

1 lemon

1/2 lime

1/4 inch ginger



all juiced in my brand new juicer 🙂 WOW! It was yummy!


A Really Long Week


I have made it through this week. 

This week of NO WORKOUTS. This week that scared me so much. I felt so out of control but I know it was the right thing for me to do. I finally listened to the doctors. The doctors who told me to stop working out. They told me it sounded strange to hear that coming out of a doctors mouth, but that was what I needed to do. 

When you are inflicting something on yourself only you can make the change. I have not done anything but yoga and walking with my dog since last Thursday night and here it is, over a week later, and I am still ok. I didn’t gain 500lbs. I didn’t fall off the wagon. I still am going to take it easy for the next few weeks and see what happens. 

In this week, I have had a lot of fun and also crazy experiences. Vacation with my dog and husband, cars breaking down, family suffering losses of pets. Through it all, I remained strong. I didn’t have the gym to turn to, but I was able to manage and move on.

I am ready to keep going 🙂Image

Sixty to Zero and Doctors

A car that can go from zero to sixty in 3.5 seconds or less is considered a ridiculously fast car. A car that is a dream for most men (and some women too). This car would make the list of the fastest cars in production and be on posters hung in garages around the world.

Some people, however, think they also should live their lives this way. They should be able to go from 0 to 60 in no time flat and be able to do that while eating, texting, and doing their makeup. I have fallen for this hype. I have fallen for the entertainment industry’s idea of the ideal woman. I have believed I should strive for perfection in every single thing I do and try to do as many things as I possibly can.

We all know doctors aim for the general public to be healthy. They are advocates for healthy eating and working out. But what happens when a doctor tells you to stop working out?!?! How are you supposed to take that advice?

While giving that advice to me, the doctor and nurse even admitted it sounds strange coming from their mouths. “but you are so obsessed with working out that your body is beginning to shut down”.

You should have seen my face! I knew on the inside that they were right, but how are you supposed to take that news when you workout twice a day every day? When you feel your most confident at the gym? When you know your life just wouldn’t be the same? That you just wouldn’t be the same? Those, my dear, are the dangerous thoughts of obsession. And obsession, my dear, is unhealthy.

Isn’t it crazy how we can try so hard to be healthy that it turns around and bites us in the ass?

It starts to make your body shut down and also takes a toll on your relationship.

It messes with your confidence and with your body.

Now, I am ready to make a change. After months of hearing that I needed to slow it down. Needed to make a change. The last phone call from the doctor was finally the one that broke the camel’s back.

I have vowed to stop working out for at least two weeks. No gym. No running.

I have signed up for a yoga class and am going to sleep in. I am going to go on walks with my dog and paddle board with my husband.

I am going to fix my body, heal my cycle, and pray that all of this gets me to my end goal. I have a new priority now and it can’t happen unless I change. I am inflicting this all on myself…how silly of me.

It’s going to be the toughest thing I have ever done. Tougher that Tough Mudder, Super Spartan, Badass Bash, even tougher that running a marathon in below 10 degree weather in snow flurries.

I am going to turn it around and instead of trying to go from 0 to 60 as fast as I can, I will go from 60 to 0 at a leisurely pace  🙂

I am ready.

Spiraling Into Control

So, we have all heard of the saying “spiraling out of control” before, right?

What comes to your mind when you hear that saying. When I hear it, I picture some crazy lady with hair sticking every which way, bugged out eyes, and mismatched clothes. I picture a car heading straight into a wreck. I picture a million things.

What I don’t picture, is myself. But, that is exactly what has happened to me.

For a long time now, I have thought about starting a blog. I have thought about the interesting and delicious recipes I would post and the yummy smoothie ideas I could share. I even started a few times. Each time I started, however, I had no backbone to my story. Nothing made it interesting and even worse, my own life was so out of control that I had no time to keep up.

This time I am for real. I am changing my life and I am going to teach myself to spiral right back into control. I am going to stop trying to pretend everything is all awesomesauce and I am going to be honest and real.


Because real is a lot more interesting…isn’t it?